Nicole Kidman may look like she’s pressing on amid her divorce from Keith Urban, but a source tells Star that behind the smiles, she’s struggling. The source says she feels lost, and the grief she’s carrying is far more intense than she lets on.
“In so many respects Nicole is doing brilliantly,” the source says. “She’s been a total pro throughout this, and her number one goal is to stay strong and not crumble for the sake of her daughters, as well as herself.”
However, the source explains that it’s “easier said than done.”
“Keith was the love of her life, and it’s not that simple to just turn those feelings off like a tap,” the source continues. “She’s been on auto pilot, cramming her schedule like crazy and sticking tight to friends who are longing to set her up for some fun once she gives the word.”
While Kidman, 58, might seem like she’s holding it all together, the source says that there’s a feeling like “the dam has to burst at some point soon.”
“She has so much resentment and heartache that’s inevitably going to come to the surface,” the source adds. “And when that happens it’s not going to be pretty.”
Kidman and Urban, 57, first met in 2005 before going on to officially tie the knot the following year. During their time together, they welcomed daughters Sunday Rose, 17, and Faith Margaret, 14.
On September 29, news broke that Urban and Kidman had separated and the next day, the Practical Magic star filed for divorce.